Five Finger Death Punch frontman Ivan Moody has spoken about his struggles with alcohol in a new interview.
Moody admitted in June last year that he had “fallen off the wagon again” and subsequently took a step back from the band’s live commitments to seek professional help.
And in a new interview with Green Bay radio station Razor 94.7 (opens in new tab), Moody has opened up on his experience, and says at one point he “was pissed” to still be alive.
Moody says: (via Blabbermouth (opens in new tab)): “Anyone in recovery knows that isolation is the biggest enemy. And being in the industry that we are, I had to isolate myself.
“I lived on the bus or a hotel room, an airplane. No girlfriends, no family. My kids are everything to me and I never got to see them. I missed tons of moments and years. And so the bottle sang back to me, so to speak. It was the one thing that I could guarantee.”
He continues: “When I was drunk, I knew how my life was going to end. I planned on it. I was going to not wake up one day or go into seizure and die. I was comfortable, because I knew what was going to happen.
“Now being sober, I don't know how I'm going to go – and that's a fucking scary thing. I've met a lot of addicts that feel the same way.”
Moody reports he had been in rehab four times previously and adds: “I knew I was done during my detox. It took me seven and a half days just to detox. I couldn't walk, I couldn't go to the bathroom by myself, I couldn't smoke a cigarette.
“I had a staff member actually sleep in the room with me for the first 38 hours, just to make sure that I didn't go under.
“I blew a .36 when I went in, which, to anybody who knows anything, means that that was, basically, death. And I didn't want to come out of it. I woke up the next day, and I was pissed that I was still alive.”
Moody and his bandmates will release their brand new studio album And Justice For None this Friday (May 18) and last week launched a video for their latest single Sham Pain (opens in new tab).