Bring Me The Horizon frontman Oli Sykes has admitted he wanted to die while he was addicted to ketamine.
Now Sykes tells Alternative Press: “My issues stemmed from the fact that I was trying so hard to fight against what people were saying about me. I wasn’t what people were saying I was. But I wasn’t a good person either. I felt so guilty about who I was.”
He calls ketamine a “scummy drug,” saying it disconnected his mind from his body, and adds: “It took my ego away. It took away who I was. I nearly killed myself. I just didn’t care whether I lived or not.
“I was very close – I wanted to die.”
Despite accepting that a month in rehab helped him, the Sykes says: “I didn’t believe the stuff they told me. They tell you ‘it’s a disease,’ but that’s bollocks. It’s not a disease. It’s a self-inflicted problem. It’s offensive to people with diseases to claim addiction is a disease.
“They said it would be a struggle every day, that you’re an addict for the rest of your life. It’s all bollocks. I’ve never looked back since I got clean.”